Excruciating Agony: A Personal Fight With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It began on a overcast Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, like electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then returned with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.
The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches often begin with intense pain around one eye that persists up to three hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.
What connects patients is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.
Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.
Nevertheless, the inability to organize life around erratic pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.
Headaches have been documented across history. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Ancient healing texts suggest bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.
It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.
Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.
In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.
Despite such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor looked up his complaints.
Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for most of her life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.
Official guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of well-known people.
But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.
The national guidance need revising to reflect a